Christmas

...something about this year's holidays [is] honestly ticking me off.

There's just something about this year's holidays that's honestly ticking me off. Every time I hear Christmas songs being played on the radio, or conversations involving the upcoming holiday season, I get immediately irritated. This is something new, given that 1) I love the Yuletide season, and 2) good things always happen during holidays. And this one is no different.

First, I'm not going home for Christmas. Don't get me wrong, I would love to spend Christmas at home, but then my parents came up with a more brilliant solution. Instead of Kerwin spending time with them in Davao (for the umpteenth time), why not send Kenneth, the younger brother who has never been to Manila ever, over? I'm so thrilled with the prospect that I'm actually planning Kenneth's "schedule" as early as now.

Second, the cool girls (AKA the MA's) and I are devouring Angela's hamon de bola all over again. It was such a fun and memorable time last year when we just ripped the box apart, shredded the meat with our bare hands, and stuffed all that fatty pork in our hungry mouths. And lapped our hands right after. Hee. Okay, so we weren't that uncouth, but still. Those were very, very good times.

Third, the Mathtenistas (AKA BS Math Batch 2005) are having our traditional 2nd Simbang Gabi gathering in the Bellarmine Field this December 16. This get-together is even more special now that Fred, like Maita before him, is leaving the country to pursue his studies, perhaps permanently. I sorely miss my blockmates, especially Joey, Sam, and Toj (who's going to be my date!), so this is something I really need and really look forward to.

So what's ticking me off? Christmas is a good thing, is a great thing even, so what's with all the negativity?

Hay, it's shallow really. My insecurity is just taking its toll on me again. Let's leave it at that.

(Hmmm... this post actually came out as more positive than negative, after all. Yay me for keeping the bullshit in.)