Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Course C

...a huge chasm [separates] love for the subject and actually understanding it, and that... is practice.

You just know this post was forthcoming, didn't you?

Guys, I'm panicking. Seriously. I know you've heard this a thousand times before, but I really am. My fourth actuarial exam (the exam that will catapult me to Associateship, which is, like, a very cool thing) takes place less than two weeks from now, and I feel like I'm not prepared for it. At all. Granted, the coverage of the exam is kinda fun to study (unlike that dreadful Course FM exam, which I truly loathed), but still. There's a huge chasm separating love for the subject and actually understanding it, and that chasm is practice. I don't have much time in my hands right now to engage in that vital step. And, given my skewed priorities, I'm not sure if I'm going to survive.

Hay, I shouldn't even be blogging, but here you go.

Good luck to me and my future.

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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Of Tags and Labels

Can anyone help me find a way around this?

After playing around my labels for a bit, I realized that they weren't working the way I expected them to. By clicking on one of the tags listed on the right side of my blog, I anticipated that the page would show all entries posted under that particular tag. Unfortunately, this is not the case. What the page shows are entries that were posted under that tag only for a single month. That kind of defeats the purpose entirely. Can anyone help me find a way around this? I would NOT like to use Blogger beta at all.

P.S. And while we're at it, I just discovered that my site looks really crappy when seen in other computers that do not have the fonts that I use. I'm going to try and find out what these fonts are later (as it's 4 in the morning and I still have to study and I just feel so goddam tired), and I'll post links so you can download them. So that you'll see what the site really looks like with cool fonts and everything! :)

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JSA

...but when it came, I felt... used.

I expected this, and even wished for it, but when it came, I felt disappointed. And empty. And used.

Maybe I didn't wish for it, after all.

Maybe I can't live life the way I have planned it.

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Monday, October 23, 2006

Christmas

...something about this year's holidays [is] honestly ticking me off.

There's just something about this year's holidays that's honestly ticking me off. Every time I hear Christmas songs being played on the radio, or conversations involving the upcoming holiday season, I get immediately irritated. This is something new, given that 1) I love the Yuletide season, and 2) good things always happen during holidays. And this one is no different.

First, I'm not going home for Christmas. Don't get me wrong, I would love to spend Christmas at home, but then my parents came up with a more brilliant solution. Instead of Kerwin spending time with them in Davao (for the umpteenth time), why not send Kenneth, the younger brother who has never been to Manila ever, over? I'm so thrilled with the prospect that I'm actually planning Kenneth's "schedule" as early as now.

Second, the cool girls (AKA the MA's) and I are devouring Angela's hamon de bola all over again. It was such a fun and memorable time last year when we just ripped the box apart, shredded the meat with our bare hands, and stuffed all that fatty pork in our hungry mouths. And lapped our hands right after. Hee. Okay, so we weren't that uncouth, but still. Those were very, very good times.

Third, the Mathtenistas (AKA BS Math Batch 2005) are having our traditional 2nd Simbang Gabi gathering in the Bellarmine Field this December 16. This get-together is even more special now that Fred, like Maita before him, is leaving the country to pursue his studies, perhaps permanently. I sorely miss my blockmates, especially Joey, Sam, and Toj (who's going to be my date!), so this is something I really need and really look forward to.

So what's ticking me off? Christmas is a good thing, is a great thing even, so what's with all the negativity?

Hay, it's shallow really. My insecurity is just taking its toll on me again. Let's leave it at that.

(Hmmm... this post actually came out as more positive than negative, after all. Yay me for keeping the bullshit in.)

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Thursday, October 19, 2006

The Adventures of the Dark-Skinned King, Episode 2

"Pink. Blue. Red." What did these colors mean?

Greetings folksmen and subjects of His Royal Highness. Here I am again, the lowly observer whose sole job is to follow the king's every step. Eons have passed since you've last witnessed the king's adventures, but it's only because he was busy attending to so many pressing matters, and I just had to follow. You must know how it is, ruling over kingdoms. Or maybe you don't know, that's why you're so eager to hear all about my chronicles.

In any case, here I am. What tidings do I bring? Not much, I fear, except for the little fact that the dark-skinned king has found himself a little obsessed over his new fascination. What has caught the eye of the young man? I'm not quite sure, either, but it has something to do with trains. Yes, trains, not the expensive chariots he frequents when he's in a hurry. Trains.

Like I said, I'm not quite sure what exactly about trains the king found so interesting. I'm not really allowed to come close to him, so I cannot ask. My curiosity reached a point, however, when I just had to approach him. One night, when he was on one of his train trips, I inched closer and closer to him until we were only a few feet apart. Thank heavens he did not see me. I then listened. I was absolutely intrigued to hear the king mutter to his courtsmen, "Pink. Blue. Red." Colors. I wondered what these colors were. What did they mean? What did they signify? I stepped out of hearing's reach almost immediately, when I saw that one of his subjects broke away from the king's circle and started walking towards me. I was able to escape, of course, but with that lingering feeling that I should have listened more.

Trains. Pink, blue, and red. What was the connection? I must say this has given some depth to the king once again. I never thought of him as someone who could be obsessed with something (or someone, come to think about it), but there you go. My chronicles never lie. I never lie. I write down what I see. I guess it's up to you, loyal subjects of the king, to figure this one out. As for me, I continue to follow the footsteps of the dark-skinned king.





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Monday, October 16, 2006

Extra! Extra! Watch All About It!

...the Amazing Race X rocks!

Just to kick things off. My favorite reality TV show of all time, The Amazing Race, is clearly going back to its original, hardcore roots. My favorite season of all time, Season 5, is still coming out on top (probably because of my tremendous love for Colin and Christie), but tasks-wise, rules-wise, and mechanics-wise, Season 10 is just so much more superior! No more excessive bunching and bunching that renders almost the whole leg worthless (the bane of Season 6), no more boring tasks (the bane of Seasons 6-9), no more mugging and begging during NEL's (the bane of Seasons 7-9), and as yet, no more uneventful Yields (the bane of Seasons 5-9). What are in place? A diverse cast (though the elimination of the Moslems and the Indians in the first leg watered this down a bit), really trying and well-thought-out tasks (ascenders, woohoo!), a shake in mechanics (middle-of-the-leg eliminations, east-to-west travel), a real penalty for coming in last on an NEL, and no one team dominating the entire race! (Well, Colin and Christie did come in first on almost every leg, but it was because Colin had fantastic airport skills in particular and a great grasp of race mechanics in general.) Can you scream "Hallelujah?" The season just gets better and better!

In other news, Pinoy Dream Academy. My roommate knows the disgust I felt watching the first few episodes of this show. I told him, "What is this, Pinoy Big Brother all over again?" After several weeks of watching the Expulsion and Probation Nights, though, I have come to love PDA. Which is a strange thing, given that I've sworn allegiance to Philippine Idol even before the show aired. Well, I guess those are the operative words: ...even before the show aired. When it finally did, I found that I had neither love or affection for the uninteresting finalists, the washed-out set, and the crappy sound system. Which, you know, should have been pre-requisites for a successful Idol franchise.

Anyway, back to PDA. As I've said, I have come to love the show. And while the start was a little shaky and leaning towards Big Brother, the show finally realized its mistake and started showing what viewers have been expecting for it to air all along: the classes, the performances, the songs, the rehearsals, the reviews, the teachers, the lessons, the evaluation. Of course, with Laurenti Dyogi in the commander's helm, there's bound to be a sprinkle of Yeng-RJ and Iya-JR love stories, as well as the appearance of family members to induce drama, but I simply ignore these by not watching the episodes where these romantic interludes are shown. In the greater scheme of things, these have even become bearable.

Why, you might ask. One, I believe the show is truly improving. It learns from what fans have to say, and it picks idea from them. The shift from drama-based to talent-based (it did shift, in my opinion) episodes is a clear example of this. Now we get to see more of the scholars' progress in singing and performing, rather than what kind of childhood experiences they have had. Two, the performances of some of the scholars are just awesome. Those that immediately spring to mind belong to Yvan, JR, Yeng, Panky, Emman, Ronnie, and Irish. With these handful of great acts, I can basically ignore those that suck (Kristoff, I'm looking at you.). But this brings me to my third point, which is that the show's elimination process rocks! Thus far, all those that have been eliminated do not deserve to remain in the show any longer. Sooner or later, with the 5-probation = expulsion rule, Kristoff, Michelle and Rosita are going to get the boot. I also have to say that the three-level elimination works better than depending solely on votes or solely on judges. Gone are the days when those who are popular outlast those who are good. Good job, PDA!

More power to these two shows!

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After the Storm

I'm back, happy(ier)...

It's been a while, guys. And trust me, I feel better. Thank you for everyone who've been there during those rough times. I appreciate all the support. Nes and Shirls, thank you for the comments below. You hit me where it mattered most. Jel, thank you for the response in your blog (although it hurt my head just figuring out how it could be a response :p). Coming from you, it means simply everything. Everything.

Well, I'm back, happy(ier). Good. Great.

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